Painful Memories

So, I just got back from "Clash and Bowl." Obviously, we dressed up weird looking and then went bowling. It was a lot of fun. But then... I don't know what happened... It suddenly hit me that the last time I went bowling was with Ryan. He was a guy that I saw a lot of a year ago. Now that I look back on our relationship, I would almost have to say that we were dating. I wont get into all the details, but I just felt really really sad all of a sudden. It brought back so many memories. The songs playing in the bowling alley were not helping any either. Finally Akon's "I want to make up right now now now, I want to make up right now now now, Wish we never broke up right now now now, We need to link up right now now now" song came on and that was too much. People must have thought I was like mad or something because they all kept asking me if I was having fun. I wish people would have to guts to just ask what was wrong. I wish people actually cared. That thought just took me further into my misery because Ryan was a person that I could tell anything and everything and he always listened to me no matter how incoherant I was being. Once, I was working with a girl I really could not stand and I was having a really bad day and he drove from home to see me. He always knew exactly what to do or say, or what not to say (which is much more important).

Anyways, that's how I'm feeling right now...